I'm Back! The Joys of Adoption!

I know, I know, I know...At some point, are you sure it was in this lifetime?, I said I would post everyday. What's that saying? The one about the best of intentions? I won't make excuses, I would rather give an explanation. OK, I'll be honest. Where did I get the CRAZY idea that I could start raising kids in my 40's? WHAT WAS I THINKING? Please, don't get me wrong. I AM NOT COMPLAINING...I am merely venting...and explaining. While most (ALL) of our friends that have children had them in their early thirties, I was 42...42! And they started with one at a time...well not you Colleen, you were blessed with twins. Timmy and I started with 2. Charlie was almost 9 and David was 11 months old when they came into our lives and gave us a new definition of happiness. Not quite 5 months later, Emily-Ann appeared. It seems as if God was just testing us to see if we really could handle children. He decided, after he saw the joy that the boys brought to us, to bless us with a BABY girl. She was 4 days old and just barely 6 pounds. I literally thought I was going to break her. Now she is a ton of bricks...beautiful designer bricks but bricks nonetheless. The point? I AM OLD. Maybe not of mind, I have been told I act 20 at times but of body. It is wearing out. My knees ache, not to mention my back, side, feet, neck and head. I wonder at times if I should have just tried to have a family way before I was in my forties. Then I STOP and think about what I have. I have a great husband who is not only a wonderful provider but also a GOOD man. I have 3 beautiful, funny, incredible children who may have been birthed by another woman but have been ours since the beginning of time. It's funny how God works. He always had a plan for us and for our children. I know I should never question Him but I also know I am human. At the end of the day, as I check on all 3 of them ten thousands times before I get into bed with my husband, I realize how blessed we are. Just how truly blessed WE are. I am blessed. I need to stop at times and realize how truly blessed I am.